Day Twelve: Order in your life (random sit-ups)

Today is one of those days where I'm really lazy, so I am not doing any of the millions of things I should be doing, but at the same time I'm really bored, so I'm not even enjoying not doing anything. Slash I'm feeling really guilty about not doing any of the things I should be doing. I've been getting like this a lot lately because I am in the process of moving, and I don't even know where-to. It might be a 20 minute drive, and it might be a 2 day drive. And it's happening within the week. My life has been absolutely crazier than you can even imagine for a couples years now because of housing market problems. And it's really hard to accomplish anything when my life's like that. I can never get a job because I never know where I'm gonna be living next month, or I think I'm gonna be doing one thing, and then I end up doing something completely different. Basically I have NO control over my life.

There was an episode of Oprah that talked about how women have a really hard time dieting when they aren't in total control of their life. And it is so true. Like I always say, it's all psychological. For me, I always gave myself all these conditions before I had to go on a diet. First of all, if there was anything in the near future involving yummy food (and by near future, I mean the next 2 months!), I would wait until after that to start a diet. It always had to be a monday. Sometimes it would even have to be the first of a month. Men are not like that. The brain of a women (or maybe just mine), must have complete order in all areas of their life before they can diet. They don't know how to calculate that a little each day makes a difference. Let me give you an example. If every time in my life that I thought of doing sit-ups, I actually did them, I would be so ripped by now. But even if I'm in the mood to do sit-ups, I think about how one day of sit-ups isn't gonna make a difference, and instead of just doing them, I go to a notebook and make a chart so that I can check off doing sit-ups everyday (of course starting next monday)... then by the time that monday comes (plus most days after that), I don't feel like doing sit-ups, or I forget or something. Number of times in my life I wanted to do sit-ups right then and there: 8,000... Number of times I actually did sit-ups: 5. This of course applies to jogging, dieting... pretty much anything that is good for me.

..But! This past week, I ran once and did sit-ups twice. Just randomly. No rhyme or reason. And I may never do it again. But my new thing is always doing situps whenever I think of it and feel like it/always running when I think of it and feel like it. And I won't keep track of how many times a week, and I won't force myself to do it, but in the end, I will end up having done way more sit-ups and having way flatter abs, and losing weight more quickly than if I continued being the nut-case that I was.

Now. I need to do something about my happiness. I think I'm just gonna go into robot mode today and get everything done that needs to get done. Here I go.

...ok, I went to Pizza Uno for dinner, but before I went, I looked online to see what I could eat. I got the chicken with mango salsa. It was only 4 points, and it was the most delicious thing ever! Seriously, it was soooo good!!! So I have 3 points left. I'm gonna make myself a chocolate shake with low carb icecream. That will be 3 points, and therefore..........

POINTS EATEN TODAY:23